trust.

As of late I have realized that I suck at trusting people. Really, I do.

I have a hard time trusting the friends that I have known for my entire life. I am too paranoid. I am constantly waiting for the other shoe to drop.

And it turns out the one relationship that I thought was different, is not.

The other shoe dropped.

And I wasn't ready for it.

Although, I'm not sure how one would ever be ready for it.

So now I'm in limbo.

Hoping against hope that I can turn this back around.

Praying that I can break my cycle and really, fully, completely trust.

God, please grant me the strength to face my fears head on, and to get out of my own head. Help me to trust. Amen.

One Word

Your Cell Phone? blackberry.
Your Hair? blonde.
Your Mother? greatest.
Your Father? generous.
Your Favorite Food? rice.
Your Dream Last Night? strange.
Your Favorite Drink? coffee.
Your Dream/Goal? happy.
What Room Are You In? living.
Your Hobby? photography.
Your Fear? heights.
Where Do You See Yourself In Six Years? married?
Where Were You Last Night? home.
Something That You Aren’t? daring.
Muffins? delicious!
Wish List Item? lenses.
Where Did You Grow Up? here.
Last Thing You Did? windowshop.
What Are You Wearing? pajamas.
Your TV? off.
Your Pets? gone :(
Friends? best.
Your Life? blessed.
Your Mood? usual.
Missing Someone? always.
Vehicle? rav4.
Something You Aren’t Wearing? make-up.
Your Favorite Store? coach.
Your Favorite Color? green.
When Was The Last Time You Laughed? yesterday.
Last Time You Cried? ages.
Your Best Friend? beautiful.
One Place You Go To Over And Over Again? starbucks.
Facebook? boring.
Favorite Place To Eat? garden.