trust.

As of late I have realized that I suck at trusting people. Really, I do.

I have a hard time trusting the friends that I have known for my entire life. I am too paranoid. I am constantly waiting for the other shoe to drop.

And it turns out the one relationship that I thought was different, is not.

The other shoe dropped.

And I wasn't ready for it.

Although, I'm not sure how one would ever be ready for it.

So now I'm in limbo.

Hoping against hope that I can turn this back around.

Praying that I can break my cycle and really, fully, completely trust.

God, please grant me the strength to face my fears head on, and to get out of my own head. Help me to trust. Amen.